Moving along

This past month has been such a lull. I haven't done much of anything that I should have done. I think I needed the break even though I tried not to take it. I spent Thanksgiving week with the in-laws and wound up snowed in, right on the interstate less than 100 miles from home. Now I sit here with a sprained ankle from snow boots that were not supportive enough. I've been taking good care of it, so I expect it to heal rather nicely. My training as a gymnast and figure skater has given great agility, flexibility and balance -- but weak ankles.

The news has been full of doom lately and I realize I haven't been full of enough doom to get me moving on my plans. I spent November in a haze of some kind. I stockpiled a little more, but I'm re-thinking the notion of doing anymore of that. We are moving into a travel trailer full time and won't have room for everything. And if something should happen and we can no longer pay rent here before we get the trailer, there certainly won't be a place for all of that. So it's back to the whiteboard for my plans. Having alot of food and supplies is great... but have you ever seen a homeless person lugging around 6 months worth of stuff? Me either.

I think I need to stop right here at the stockpiling and start saving that money instead. I have a feeling at Tax Time this year, we are going to wind up on the losing end. However, both the husband and I are getting a raise in January but I have no illusions about job security. Come April, perhaps taxes will be the least of everyone's concern. I hope things hold together for a few more months. We desperately need that time to save for and acquire our new permanent home. As long as I have shelter and at least a ration of food and water, I'll be perfectly fine. Being without shelter bothers me more than being without food. I have lived in some extreme climates and I know what the heat and cold can do.

I can't stress enough how mental this all is. My struggle or success with this or that is about 90-95% mental. It has little to do with the amount of money we do or don't have. It's more about how well I can prepare myself for change and how well I can slide through the transition, out the other side. Everyone has things holding them back, some are just more detrimental to this sort of thing than others. I need to reel in those issues and get real about the future. It's frustrating how slow change can be.